Jun. 21st, 2010

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I dreamed I was planting a garden. That's pretty much it.

INTERPRETATION (via DreamMoods.com):

To dream that you are planting something, represents your faith and optimism about the future.

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Yesterday was the first Father's Day in forever for which I did not have to awkwardly prepare by searching through racks of greeting cards for one that didn't say anything too meaningful or grossly untrue ("I love you," "You're a great Dad," etc.). I never really examined that ritual very closely. Why bother with such a meaningless act or, further, such a meaningless relationship?

I'm surprisingly OK with the fact that I'm no longer speaking to my parents. The worst of it, the couple weeks after I graduated with no mention of it by them, has passed. I did my grieving then. (And that's when I also registered a domain name having to do with Adult Adoption. Not sure what to do with it yet but hopefully something cool.) I do feel sorry for my kid because I had two grandparents who were so loving and kind to me-- and my kid never had that. But then again, I had a couple wonderful grandparents but not even one parent with a  head screwed on right. I guess it's a trade-off.

Overall, separating from my parents has probably been the best decision I have ever made. I feel like I've lost 200 pounds of anxiety and indecision.


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